Al-Fatihah.

Assalamualaikum.


11april2012. Arwah tok abah yang selesa kami panggil 'abah' telah dipanggil untuk bertemuNya. Ini ada kematian kedua dalam keluarga saya selepas ibu saudara saya. Alhamdulillah keesokan harinya arwah selamat dikebumikan. Alhamdulillah, saya berkesempatan memandikan arwah. Usai dikafan, anak beranak diberi peluang mengucup arwah buat terakhir kali. Sunyi sepi, diiringi esakan kecil kedengaran. Sungguh, saya akui tidak elok bersedih dikala waktu seperti itu, tapi yang berada didepan saya, terbujur kaku itu abah saya. Satu satunya datuk yang ada. Namun, ternyata Allah lebih menyayangi arwah, memanggilnya terlebih dahulu dari kami. Allahuakbar, lutut menggigil, badan kaku ketika memeriksa nadi arwah pada malam rabu lepas. Hanya nenek saya, che, abang sulung dan saya berada di rumah ketika arwah menghembuskan nafas terakhir. Hanya Dia yang tahu perasaan saya ketika itu. Allah. Semoga abah ditempatkan dalam kalangan para solihin dan orang beriman. Semoga amalan arwah dan doa doa kami diterima Yang Esa buat menemani abah di alam sana. Sehingga berjumpa di hayat yang seterusnya abah, bersama senyuman yang terukir diwaktu hayatmu dan juga diwaktu pemergianmu InshaAllah. Al-Fatihah. :)
A best friend will ask you 'why' for every single reason that makes you cry or laugh.
But a good friend will tell you to be patience of the test and  be grateful of the happiness.


A best friend will text you whenever you need them.
But a good friend will always come to your home and lingering around you even when you tell them nothing.


A best friend will talk badly about the person that you don't like.
But a good friend will talk directly to the person that hurts you.


A best friend will do whatever that you want them to do.
But a good friend will only do things that will give you any good.




A best friend and good friend, they are look alike but way too different. You can be best friend, any time. But you can't be a good friend by just saying 'hi'. Know what I'm saying?

This.

Clock is ticking. Finals are approaching. And yet, I haven't do anything about it. No study, no revision. Should have been more sensitive towards this issue later. Being such an ignorance is not that great afterall. :)
Sedikit terluka saya akui. Jangan pernah menghampiri kalau niat bukan untuk menikahi. :I
Alhamdulillah. All praises to Him. All praises to Him. You can't expect anything better than His plans. He is indeed, knows the best for us and gives us what should we have. Kadang diberi sesuatu bukan untuk kita nikmati, tapi untuk kita mensyukuri. Terima dengan hati terbuka, inshaAllah dipermudahkan segala olehNya. Kalau yang baik dariNya itu, sudah pasti baik untuk kita kan? :)

Friend? Think twice.

If you can't keep a secret, please don't be my friend. If you can't talk anything but bad about me, please don't be my friend. If you have devil thought about me, please don't be my friend. If you can't stand seeing my happiness, please don't be my friend. If you can't be honest with me, please don't be my friend. If you can't trust me, please don't be my friend. If you don't want to be my friend, please don't act like you do. It's me who looks pretty pathetic down here thinking that our friendship is true. Having enough of me? Then go. Don't pretend. Don't keep pretending.  
"When I’m alone and need someone to support me, no one comes to help me except Allah. When I pretend to be strong, no one sees my hidden tears except Allah. When I’m sad and need a shoulder to cry on, no one supports me but Allah. Pleasing a human is very difficult, pleasing Allah is the easiest. People sometimes punish me for mistakes I have not done, Allah ignores and excuses the ones that I did. This is Allah, The Greatest, The Most Almighty, The Most Beneficent, The Most Merciful, and all praise belongs to Him."
Isn't it ironic that the only person who can make you really happy is the same person who makes you sad and lonely? And in the end of the day, only one remains, Allah. :)
We lost each other the moment you ripped out my trust. I've tried to considerate everything but it seems like everything isn't enough to pay off what have you done to me. I'm sorry I'm being harsh. I can take once and twice, but not over and over again. My heart gets hurt, my pride gets down. You can walk your way, and I walk mine. So long, friend. :)