Colbie Caillat - I Do


i do i do i do idodododododo. hehe.
oh my oh myyy nak pengsan please. hahahaa bahagiaaaa. walaopon mungkin untuk seketika cuma. aceyh jiwang pon boleh. hahaha

Wealth? My parents gave me enough. I couldn't ask for more. All I want is, an honest heart that love me even dearly, steps that follow me even nearly, and a soul that accepts me for who I am. Annnnndddd, unexceptionally, a ring that will fit in my small finger. Hahahaha.
kalau taktahu cerita, jangan memandai nak buat cerita. kalau dah tahu 1% je kisah hidup I, jangan nak mengada buatbuat macam you dah khatam 100%. please lah. I dah muak dah. get a life, would ya?


BWAHAHAHAA. FUNNNNNNNNYY. ;p

hehe fill in the blanks for me, yes love? ;p
another 2 papers to goooo. yappari! nak abeskan cepat cepat. results mungkin agak terok. kene ready awal awal. oh my. tak snggup nak check result satgi. alahai. lambatnyaaa masa. cepatlah sikit boleh tak. penat menunggu neh. dah macam kaunter kat husm dah ni lama sangattt menunggu nye pun ter ber. kala hati sedang bersedih, apa yang kita buat? yang sepatotnya orang islam buat, of course semestinnya semua orang tau kot. and one more thing, TIDO. hehe even tido tipu tipu sambil lap air mata pon layan jela. peduli lah kan bukan masuk tv pon cara tido dan sebagainya berkenaan tido ni. oh sorry i campak phone ntah kemana tadi. maybe takan answer any phone call or reply any text. hehe maybe. or maybe not. okay sebelom puisi macbeth shakespear whatever keluar sini, i nak pi krohh dulu la. goodnight all. goodnight to You too. be safe. and yes, be full. jangan mengade nak diet, i ketuk pale you satgi. have a nice solid saturday esok everyone. night!
everything will be just fine. distance doesn't ruin a relationship. doubts do. so keep yourself away from any gossip okay mister? hehe.
kerana, jodoh itu rahsia Allah. :)



- thank you for this advice. you know who you are.
I don't know why, this photo makes me calm. And feel at ease. How wonderful. :)
If you spend too long holding on to the one who treats you like an option, you will miss finding someone who treats you like a priority.
I FORGAVE YOU. OFF YOU GO SWEETHEART. BE SAFE. BE HAPPY. :)
the funny thing is, nobody ever really knows how much anybody else is hurting. we could be standing next to somebody who is completely broken and we wouldn't even know it.

Keri Hilson Knock you down (with lyrics)

Ladies, when we know love is on the door, it's okay to answer doors from strangers. Because they might be the one.

-Terfaktab. :)
The awkward moment when you don't know how to reply to a really really sweet texts.




Awwwh, thank you sayang. :*
Feelings don't die, because we keep on feeding them with memories. That's exactly why....it is hard to move on. :I
WHEN THINGS AREN'T WORKING OUT AS YOU WISH, BE PATIENT. STOP TRYING TO MOVE AHEAD OF ALLAH. HIS TIMING IS PREFECT. TRUST HIM.
If there's one thing I've learned in life, it's that no matter what, things will be ok. You may feel like your life sucks and you want to die, but that's not true. You're going to be happy and you're going to smile again. So please, one day of sadness is just one of the thousands of days you'll have in your life, don't let a bad moment determine all the others you'll have.
I AUTOMATICALLY ASSUME PEOPLE WON'T LIKE ME, SO I DON'T TALK TO THEM UNLESS THEY APPROACH ME FIRST. I CAN'T BECOME A PART OF A CROWD BECAUSE I CAN'T GET PAST THAT FEELING THAT I DON'T BELONG.
Esok dah start first paper tuk finals.

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Baca banyak kali bunyi macam air tuak pon ade. -__-!
I really do. :(
At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, and the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone. Walk away. It's not like you're giving up and shouldn't try. It's just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours would eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.
Sky and earth know how much I love you. But I love Him more so I learned to let you go. One day, you will find someone who loves you more than I do and I'll find someone who loves me unconditionally. :)
Demi Allah, I rindu you. Bila I rindu you, I nanges. That's the only way yang I boleh buat. Semoga you bahagia. :I
Nenek punya operation esok, early in the morning. Semoga semuanya baik-baik sahaja. Tak snggup nak pegi tengok nenek tadi sbb takot satgi nanges tanak balek. Selalu manja-manja ngan nenek. Sobs. Semoga operation esok berjaya. Nenek mesti suka pasni takde kelabu dah mata kan. Ateh doakan nenek selamat. Esok ateh pi tgk nenek na. Alahai, rindu nenek. :(
Okay malam ni I rasa I agak weng sikit. Ahh mane taknye. Dah bercawan cawan I minum kopi, tp maseh ngantok. Adrenalin I tgh tido ke apa ni. I pening. Waaa mmg kering I kene goreng ngan subjek subjek ni sume. Sobs. Sedih tol. Goodnight semua. :)
She is everything that others couldn't be. She is everything that I'd rather gave my life in. She is someone who aren't leaving when others think it's easier to walk away than to fight for what they really want. She is someone that make me realized I shouldn't keep believing in something that is never going to happen. She is someone who just stand there and listen to me no matter how crap the issues might be. Thank you a million thank you B. I've got no other way to say how much you meant to me. I want you to know, I won't run away if you need me. In fact, I'll be by your side regardless of timeline we have. You deserved to be happy and to be treated well by others because you are indeed that one kind of person. I love you so much B. You know who you are. :)

Ya Allah. Guide me and purify my heart. :I
I still don’t understand what happened. I still don’t understand how you could treat me that way. Even still, I don’t know why I allow it to continue to hurt me.

In one day, in one hour, you showed me how very little I mean to you. And that’s why I had to say goodbye to you. It wasn’t that you didn’t mean anything to me, because that is the furthest from the truth. It was because I saw how little you valued me.
" Perempuan yang suci ialah perempuan yang dijaga oleh Allah, tidak sedikit pun Allah membenarkan mana-mana lelaki menyentuh dirinya walaupun hatinya kerana Allah menyayanginya. Tetapi andai kita bergelumang dengan cinta lelaki, di mana Allah untuk menjaga kita? Jika Allah datangkan kesedaran dalam diri supaya meninggalkan cinta seorang lelaki, bermakna Allah mahu kita kembali dijagaNya. "

source : tumblr

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My dear, I've running out of ideas to coax my broken heart. :I

Who you think you are, running around leaving scars?

We used to be best friends. For our own good, we are letting each other go. Farewell, mate. I'll be missing you. :(

A question to answer. :)
Masalahnya adalah. I buat mcm tak kesah tapi I amek kesah sangat. Ceis. Salu buat hati dan mata I berdangdut. Benci weih. Tapi takpe. You yang pegiii menjaoh kan. Fine lah. Haha. You yang rugi. Rugi I belakang kira la. Hehe. You jangan nak jadi macam player sangat boleh tak? I sebat kang. Kawan kawan lah. Tapi kalau sampai orang tu dah meroyan ngan you, ape gitu? Kesian kot I tgk dia. Alahaii. Apelaa. Jagala sikit hati orang tu. Jangan sampai satu hari nanti, orang tak amek port pon nak jaga hati you, baru you tahu. I kalau dah sampai limit, memang depan depan I sembur satgi. Tapi tape, I masih sabar. Sebab apa ni, macam orang tua-tua kata tu, di hati masih ada sayang. Orang tua yang cakap, I tak cakap. Hehe. Kalaulah you tahu kan? Okayyy. Pikir lagi sekali, mungkin baik jugak you tak tahu. Aaahh pedulilah. I doakan you bahagia jelah eh? I tawar hati dah. Youla, tak pernah nak membajai hati I ngan garam gula. Asek bagi cuka je. Tak ke menanah luka I ni. Cewah. Hahaa. Okay I rasa I dah tingtong sini. Cakap bukan bukan. Kalau you yang baca ni, pastu terasa, maaf eh? Bukan niat I untuk merasaikan you pun, tp I ni yang kadang kadang menangis sambil gelak macam orang gila, ada orang kesah?
i try to hold on but it hurts too much.
By Zara:
Kalau hati kau pernah disakiti dan dilukai, tetapi masih mampu memaafkan dan menyayangi manusia itu seperti dahulunya walaupun tanpa ada apa-apa ikatan, itu sesungguhnya adalah cinta yang sejati.



Bigbang!

I penat. Dah stat saket belakang balek this lately. My studies? Blergh. Macam hape. I tak boleh pokes skang. Seriously, I'm falling apart. Tatau nape. I think I'm gonna end up bad this time. O Allah. Help me. :(
if you're too busy to call me,
i'll understand.
if you don't have time to check on me,
i'll understand.
if you're late on our date,
i'll understand.
if you're going out with your so-called girl friends,
i'll understand.
but if i stop loving you,
it's your turn to understand.

Senang kan? :)
After a while, you learn that you don't need anyone else to survive. No one is ever going to always be there no matter what they promise you. You just gotta suck it up and accept it. Oh my. You make me sick!
I planned to say all these terrible things to you, but in the end, I just want to tell you I MISS YOU. :(
Hello hello. I'm facing my finals starting this 25th. Pfft. I'm a dead meat. Trust me, this time, idk, everything is messed up. Haih. Study jelah mana patot. And tawakal. Dan tawakal. Tawakal sahaja. :)

Exam's Schedule.
25/4 - Business Math
26/4 - Organizational Behaviour
27/4 - Human Resource Management
28/4 - Finance
3/5 - Study Skills
4/5 - Macroeconomy



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*sape yang cakap BBA senang, I nak pegi kokak kepala die. Susah bai. Susah sangat. Tapi yang penting, usaha. Masalahnya, I usaha pon tak. Insaplah wahai segenap isi, organ, kepala anda wahai fathiah.


*MULAKAN STUDY WEEK INI DENGAN BISMILLAH. SEMOGA DIBERI KEBERKATAN OLEHNYA*







Hmmm. Hmmm.

Reasons for why are you hurting.

  • You’re being attached to someone who’s being distant towards you.
  • You’re paying attention to someone who ignores you.
  • You’re making time for someone who’s too busy for you.
  • You’re too caring to someone who seems careless towards you.
  • You keep waiting on someone who keeps stalling on you.

You’re positively beautiful.
I love your freckles on your nose, they bring out the colors in your eyes.
Your hair frames your face perfectly.
Your laugh is contagious and you will always make me smile.
Those scars on your knees? They show me that you’ve fallen.
That sparkle in your eyes when you smile? They show me you picked yourself up.
Your smile is drop dead gorgeous, wear it more often.
Who gives a shit if you have acne?
Who cares if you’re overweight or underweight, tall or short, tan or pale, an A cup or a D cup?
All that matters is that someone thinks you’re beautiful just the way you are and that someone is me.
I wish you could love yourself the way I love you, the way your family loves you, the way your friends love you.
Life should be spent finding beauty in flowers, clouds and poetry. Days should be spent dreaming, reading, watching sunsets and playing with babies and animals. Life is also about making the people around you smile and sometimes, on good days, life should be spent falling in love.
Cukuplah menanges. I've been through everything. If you were about to come up and say everything will be fine after all this, please, stop barking. Because I don't know how to love anyone dah. Having enough fun playing with my heart? Now give it back to me. My tears. They are not for you dah. Because a good man takan buat any girl menanges. Trust me, it's never been a day without me thinking of you. But, that WAS before. Now, if you have the guts to tell me, you will. I would understand if you tak bagitau pape pon. Hati I dah kering. Dah banyak air you perah ni haa. Haha. Be happy. Wherever you are. With whoever. Just, treat her right. I'm back off. Seriously am. All this while, if you were then come and say you don't know, you don't even realized apa yang I rasa towards you, I'll smile and say, 'It's too late for you to realize it now. I'm not having those feelings now. They, fade away. With you.'
Take care sweetheart. Bye. Bye. :)
Ahhh. I'm not good at saying goodbye, didn't I?


And you're the one I wanna marry. :)
Only an honorable man treats women with honor and integrity and only a vile and dishonorable man humiliates and degrades women.
You're fine exactly as you are. Your curves, words, flaws, strengths, thoughts. You don't need to change. You aren't ugly, fat, stupid or worthless. You are you.
Dua' is the shield of a believer. If you keep knocking on the door of Divine Mercy, it will be opened to you.
The heart will be subjected to trial after trial, and there will appear a black stain on any heart that is affected, which will spread until the heart is completely black and sealed, as it were, so that it will not recognize any good deed or denouce any evil, except whatever suits it's own desires.
I used to think that I don't deserve you. Truth is though, it's you who doesn't deserve me.

MY PRAYER. MY OFFERING.
MY LIFE AND MY DEATH ARE FOR ALLAH, THE LORD OF ALL THE WORLDS.

Setiap kali nak exam mesti saket. Alahai. Bukan nak mengeluh tapi saket mcm ni rasa mcm nak duduk je kat umah. Duk bawah comforter. Penat. Tade mood. Dan sebagainya. Nak study, seriously nak study. Tapi my body selalu penat. Otak I pon selalu penat. Nak makan ubat, tapi taktau ubat apa nak makan. My anger, my tears, everything muddled into one. Haih. To you, jangan buat hal dah. I dah get over you dah pon. I don't care, I really don't. Nak pokes study dahhh. Boi.
Dear heart, please be still.
You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved you before she may love you again. But if she loves you now, what else matters?

She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.
I buat dua sekali harung eh? Sbb macam malas. Haha. Tolddd you. ;p


Yellow : I'll tell you a secret of mine.


Hmm, a secret, yes? Apa ye? Haa. I've never fallen in love in my 21 years. Now the seal is broken. And my heart too. Hehe no longer a secret, hm? :)

Green : I'll tell you a fact about my appearance.
I vote for simplicity. Really. I'm a-girl-in-a-boy-dress type. Haha. I'm simple. And heck I don't like make up.
Sekali aku dah mula sayang, memang aku sayang betol betol. Sekali aku dah mula benci...hah, you've no idea how terrible shall I be. Jadi please. Jangan buat aku benci kau boleh tak.
Aku tak percaya lagi
Dengan apa yang kau beri
Aku terdampar disini
Tersudut menunggu mati
Aku tak percaya lagi
Akan guna matahari
Yang dulu mampu terangi
Sudut gelap hati ini

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
Kenapa ada derita
Bila bahagia tercipta
Kenapa ada sang hitam
Bila putih menyenangkan
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku salutkan kemenanganmu
Woo...

Kau ajarkan aku bahagia
Kau ajarkan aku derita
Kau tunjukan aku bahagia
Kau tunjukan aku derita
Kau berikan aku bahagia
Kau berikan aku derita

Haa...
Haa...

Aku pulang...
Tanpa dendam
Ku terima kekalahanku
Rebahkan tangguhmu
Lepaskan perlahan
Kau akan mengerti
Semua...

Aku berhenti berharap
Dan menunggu datang gelap
Sampai nanti suatu saat
Tak ada cinta kudapat
I miss my Oya. Oyaaaa balek lah pat pat. Kakak rinduu ni haa. :(
Hey. I hope you had a good night the other night, a good yesterday and an even better morning and day today. Anyway, I miss you. I miss you so much but I don't think it's right for me to do so. I shouldn't miss you. I figured you would have called or at least sent me one text you know? But nothing, not respond, nothing, not even a single sign from you. And it's funny because all I ever did was check everything and see if you would have said hello to me or something, but until now, I'm still waiting. And maybe it's hurting me more than you and I have expected it to hurt me. I told you I didn't want to trust anybody with my heart, because once I start to feel something for somebody, I let myself sitting somewhere alone thinking about how stupid I am for letting someone to get to me the way you did and cry about a minute. I hate it, I hate this feeling. And I'm sorry if this message is long. I shouldn't have listened to anything you've said, I shouldn't have because I know the person I am and I do over analyze and think things, but I think we're better off the way we started, nothing. Not even friends, nothing. You said, I've a good heart and I thought out of everyone, you out of all, saw it, knew it, felt it. I sort of hate myself because for me, at this moment, every actions and words you've done and said were lies. I don't hate you, but I do despise you, for hurting me somehow. You said you wouldn't leave me wondering yet here I am, wondering anyway. I rather be stubborn with my walls never coming down when it comes to my heart, because obviously, nothing good ever comes out of letting myself be happy. I mean look at me now, I'm much more of a mess than I was, before I let myself feel something. I hope you have a really good life, good luck with everything. I'd say see you around, but that most likely won't happen. Maybe you are not the right Rijal sent by Allah for me. Maybe you just not the right one. Goodbye.
Protect her, fight for her, love her or laugh with her. But don't make her fall, if you don't plan to catch her.
I don't know. I'm seriously don't know. Confused. Dead-end. I don't know. Go away.
Rindu kakak. Rindu acik. Seriously nak pelok dorang ketat-ketat. I've been all alone. I miss them. I miss being their little sister. I miss everythinggg. Everything. :(
Ayah : Ateeeh pinjam laptop sat ape password kasi tau ayah.

Me : Okayy ameklah.Dlm bilik atas meja.

Ayah : The password, mind you.

Me : Oh, suamisayajuruh.

Ayah : Hah? Whatttt? Suami saya juruh? Who is your husband?

Me : Err. Aaaa. Emmph. Nothing nothing. Password je tu. Ahh maluuu maluuuuu.

*juruh=berakhlak muliaaaa. Hehe
Susahnyaa macam ni. You ada and then you tade. Macam biskut. Tapi biskut tapelah sedap I boleh makan. You? Alahai. Buat keputusan boleh tak? I dah penat ni. Satgi I dah give up. I dah taknak hiraukan you betol betol jangan nak salahkan I plak. Make up your mind. Are you here? Or are you gone? Because my time isn't up for you. You're terribly wasting me. Nak, cakap. Taknak pon cakaplah. Please? I can stand the rejection but this? Not this one please. Hm? I nak cakap ya pada orang laen pon susah kalau you maen macam ni. Kadang I pikir, kalau I tolak yang laen, tp you still taknak confess pape cane? Alahaiii. Kadang I pikir jugak, kalau I terima yang laen, tp in the end, you plak yg okay ngan I, haa lagi susah. I ngan orang laen dah kot time tu. Jangan sampai I terima je org merisik satgi. Haha. Cakap please. Tell me something. Bingung dah I. Confused. Hmph.

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Kenapa dan mengapa.
Itu terjawab sudah oleh Nya.
Kenapa dan mengapa.

Telah dijanji hikmah oleh Nya.
Kenapa dan mengapa.
Dia sahaja yang mengetahui buruk dan baeknya.
Kenapa dan mengapa.
Janganlah ditanya kerana setiap yang akan berlaku dan telah berlaku itu telah ditentukan oleh Nya. :)

The most important is, he loves me.
You don't know how much you've made my heart shake. You don't know about all the stupid things I've done because of you. And now, you don't even know how much you've broken my heart.
I’ve learned that you cannot make someone love you.
All you can do is be someone who can be loved.
The rest is up to them.
I’ve learned that no matter how much I care,
some people just don’t care back.
I’ve learned that it takes years to build up trust
and only seconds to destroy it.
I’ve learned that it’s not what you have in your life
but who you have in your life that counts.
I’ve learned that you can get by on charm for about fifteen minutes.
After that, you’d better know something.

Kehidupan tidak pernah lekang dengan perkataan “dugaan”.Apabila datang dugaan dalam kehidupan,manusia sering kali mengeluh,tertekan dan sehingga sampai satu tahap hilang kawalan diri. Seandainya dugaan itu kita terima dengan hati yang redha terlalu banyak hikmah dan manfaatnya disebalik dugaan yang menimpa diri. Seringkali diri ini juga lupa akan hakikat dan hikmah dugaaan itu sendiri. Firman ALLAH SWT dalam kitab hikmahNya:

Allah tidak memberati seseorang melainkan apa yang terdaya olehnya. Dia mendapat pahala kebaikan yang diusahakannya dan dia juga menanggung dosa kejahatan yang diusahakannya.”(2:286)

ALLAH SWT tidak pernah menimpakan suatu ujian,dugaan mahupun cabaran diluar batas kemampuan hamba ciptaanNYA. Siapa kita utk mengatakan ujian,dugaan dan cabaran itu diluar kemampuan kita kerana sesungguhnya yang menciptakan kita itu bukannya diri kita sendiri akan tetapi Tuhan sekalian alam iaitu ALLAH SWT. Sungguh DIA lebih mengenali diri kita daripada diri kita sendiri. Jadi,tanamkanlah dalam diri mulai saat ini bahawa ujian ALLAH itu tanda kasih dan sayang dari ALLAH kerana itu bermakna ALLAH ambil tahu dan peduli dengan diri kita. ALLAH menguji kita sebenarnya adalah utk mengukur sejauh mana tahap iman kita sebenarnya. Hadapilah ujian dan dugaan dari ALLAH dengan keimanan,ketakwaan dan kesabaran. Cinta Allah itu mengatasai segalanya.


Sabarlah kakak ku sayang. Ada hikmah disebalik semua yang terjadi. InshaAllah. Whatever happens, I'm still here for you. You can count on me. InshaAllah everything will be just fine. :)

Tangga - Hebat


Kau membuat ku rasa hebat. :)

Talking to the Moon- Bruno Mars WITH LYRICS

Oh dearrrr. I mcm dah membesar melebihi had muatan ni. Sedihnyee. Ramai kot yang tegor asal dah berisi. Waaa. Perot tak reti erti kenyang. Cane nak buat, mmg I mkn jela kan sbb perot ni asek meraong mintak makanan. Alahaiii. Cane ni cane ni cane niiiiiii. Kene diet. Kene exercise. I taknak end up terlalu gemok satgi. I dahla kurang konfiden diri. Satgi kalau dah lagi berisii alahaii lagila tak yakin nak face dunia. Hahaha hiperboling jap. Oh oh oh minggu ni last. Minggu ni last I nak mkn sesuka hati. No more pasni. Never. Please perotttt, behave tau. I sayang you lebih kalau I leh kurus balek. :D
Orange : I'll tell you 5 of my favourite things.

1) My cameraaa - Cik Lela Manja namenya. Hehe.
2) Hugs.
3) My sneakers.
4) Red.
5) You.

Who wants to be right as rain, it's better when something is wrong.
You get excitement in your bones and everything you do is a game.
When night comes and your on your own you can say I chose to be alone.
Who wants to be right as rain, it's harder when you're on top.

'Cause when hard work don't pay off and I'm tired,
There ain't no room in my bed, as far as I'm concerned.
So wipe that dirty smile of, we won't be making up,
I've cried my heart out and now I've had enough of love.

Who wants to be riding high when you'll just crumble back on down.
You give up everything you are and even then you don't get far.
They make believe that everything is exactly what it seems.
But at least when you're at your worst, you'll know how to feel things.

Go ahead and steal my heart to make me cry again,
'cause it will never hurt as much it did then,
when we were both right and no one had blame,
but now I give up on this endless game.

'Cause who wants to be right as rain, it's better when something is wrong.
I get excitement in my bones, even though everything's a strain.
When night comes and I'm on my own, you should know I chose to be alone.
Who wants to be right as rain, it's harder when you're on top.

I've cried my heart out and now I've had enough of love.


The best love story for a Muslim is finding another Muslim who makes their Imaan rise, who makes them want to gain knowledge and become more pious, what is more blessed than that? That's only I ask from my future husband. Guide me, show me. Because I'm just an imperfect woman who ought be making my way out from all the sins I've made.
I don't let people in. It's hard for me, and once I do, I don't want to let them go. And when they fuck up, I'm like, "Why did you do that to me? I gave you my feelings, I did everything for you and you screwed me over"


Red : I'll tell you a fact about myself.

To be honest. I'm someone you want me to be. I'm giving up all I want to be since I know how to love people. I tend to appreciate other's life instead of mine. Because they meant too much for me. As simple as I seem, as outgoing as I shall be, I still have heart to earn and soul to yearn. I don't fall in love easily, but if I do, I fall hard. So hard that I bumped myself over and over again. I am nice until people gave me a reason not to be. I'm outrageously simple. If I were meant to care, I would. If I wouldn't, then, I'm just don't care.
Too much to handle. Too much that I've been hurt.

Today is my happiesttttttttt day. Happiest. Happiest. Alhamdulillah.

B, thanks for everything. For every single thing. Shawl tu mmg I simpan tak bagi dah sape sape pinjam. I love you the most, you tau kan.


Zaynab, thank you for always being such a good friend. You meant the world for me.


Shaaa, sorrryy tadi tak sempat nak amek gambar kita kan. Thanks for the dinner. Bahagia tgk shaa bahagia. Much love, adik.


Red : I'll tell you a fact about myself.
Orange : I'll tell you 5 of my favourite things.
Yellow : I'll tell you a secret of mine.
Green : I'll tell you a fact about my appearance.
Blue : I'll tell you a fact about my personality.
Purple : I'll tell you 3 things I'm good at.
Pink : I'll tell you about my love life.
Black : I'll tell you something about my family.
White : I'll tell you about the best day I've experiences so far.


Now, let's do this, shall we? Hahha I know I'm suck in doing this thing. But, it's fun so I'm going to do it as well. Hmmph.
Distance doesn't ruin a relationship, doubts do.




But, I know that I can trust you. You can put your trust on me too. :)

A day with Loves.
Oh they are my sunshines.
They are my shades when I'm a sober.
And even I'm not!
Tehee. Muahh.

You are calm and reposed, let your beauty unfold.

Pale white like the skin stretched over your bones.

Spring keeps you ever so close.

You are second hand smoker.

You are so fragile and thin, standing trial for your sins, holding onto yourself the best you can.

You are the smell before the rain; you are the blood in my veins.





Oh Dear.

Oh darling. You are my Superman. Seriously, I have no other way of thanking you.
Oh my. Lamaaanya tak borak panjang ngan nenek. My nenek is my wonderwoman. She's strong, kind beautiful (ehem ehem) and funnyyy. I bet you won't be snipping the talks kalau borak ngan nenek whom I called 'CHE'. Blergh. Give me 10 millions but I won't give you my Che. Gile pe. Sayang sampai syorga nii. Hehee. Hugging your beloved ones indeed makes your heart grow bigger. My Che is a very good hugger you see. Tehee. I love you Cheee! Muah.
Ya Allah.

The worst type of crying is when your lips start to shake and tears build up quickly and fall fast? You’re bent over or crouched trying to suck it in and not make any noise but it hurts too much to hold it so you let out a yelp and a cry then comes the loss of breath which sucks because not only you’re crying out loud but you think you sound dumb for not breathing too. It’s just a mess.It's just a mess. A mess that no one shall wipe it out. How terrible. -.-

No matter what I do, somebody gets hurt. Somebody will gets hurt.
April. Please be nice. Craps all those faggots. Let me breath the calmness of my soul.

To 'those' people, yes, you might be knowing me well, listening to my problems, life-stories and such, but that doesn't give you any credit to judge me or in fact, to be sympathy with me. Bear the talk, I won't be that easy to catch. If you think that by being my listener is going to put you in the high rank in my heart, you're absolutely and unequivocally wrong. Friendship is all the line that we have. Appreciating you doesn't mean I have to live the lie saying that I love you, ain't I? Like I said, you deserved better. Way better. I'm a torn girl, whom heart occupied with sadness. I'm useless. Sodding in my life is just the same as sodding away your future. For now, I'm just want to live my life. Peace. :)
Darling. Just so you know. I've let you go. Since before. And I'm still can't believe myself that I could be this strong to face you and acting like nothing's wrong. One thing you should really know, I'm happy as long as you are. Please be happy. That's all I want in return. :)
What should I do when my biggest strongest is you and my biggest weaknesses is you.