To be honest with you, I don’t have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about and I have a heart; a heart that’s aching to see you smile again.

Take care sweetheart. x)

Everything will be okay. Think about what happened a year ago. You probably can’t even remember. Everything that seems important now won’t be anymore. Things find a way of working themselves out. Things aren’t as impossible as they seem. Don’t think about how broken your heart is now; don’t think about how things won’t work and how hard everything seems to always be. You have two moving feet and a heart that beats. Use your feet and go find someone or something to make your heart happy. Everything is going to work out. Whatever happens is what is supposed to happen. Maybe it won’t always work out; I can’t promise you that it will. But there is no reason to believe you won’t be okay. There is no reason to believe everything won’t work out.

Alahai. Pehal pehal pehal duk tgk wedding dresses ni woii. Insap lah wahai otak esok esok nak exam bukan nak kawen. Ceis benci tol bile mood nak kawen ni membuak buak seperti buih buih di lautannn. Hahahaa. Melalut dah. Meh tgk one of my favourite punye dress. *pengsan*

* Nakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk kawen. Hehe.

Oh B. I'm seriously thinking of you masa upload post ni. Cepaaaatlah jumpe I. x)

p/s : Thanks for being there for me. I wouldn't asked for more. Trust me. You're the best that I've ever had. Love you, B.
He's a keeper.

If he can’t completely give you up. If he’ll choose to talk to you, even when he’s tired. If he sweet talks you not to get intimate, but to show how much he truly cares for you. If he gets over-jealous because he’s only afraid of losing you to another guy. If he looks at you, smiles and just randomly kisses you with a whisper of “I love you baby.” If he gives you that bubbly feeling no other person could ever give towards you. If he’s that someone that can comfort you when you’re at your worst times. If he’s fully committed and loyal to you. If he knows how to love and treat you mentally and physically. If he holds you down like no other man ever had, then he’s definitely a keeper.
Confused. But as long as I'm having you with me, I think I might be okay. (:
Thank you Sayang. You know when and how to mend my heart. Don't worry, I'll be just fine and yes, I'm waiting for you to be home. Sooo make it quick! Hahaa. :* I miss you. Terribly.
Apparently, I keep running away from people. I keep blaming myself from all the wrongdoings. How fun it is to just let you slaughter your own self. I am not the mood of talking or even to smile. Do not take my actions too seriously. I'm just so tired, sick and disappointed. It seemed like everything I did wasn't good enough. I betol betol tak sehat and even if I sehat pon, itu adalah untuk menjaga hati semua pihak. Jangan call or text I kalau mengharapkan I akan reply atau pickup the calls. I akan reply atau pickup calls mereka yang I rasa betol betol nak je. I'm sorry. I'm just want to shut all my connections for a while. I need time for myself. Please understand. Take care everyone. I love you. (:
When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters or a leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks it’s completely silent. You would think as it’s so important it would make the loudest noise in the whole world or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a cymbal or the ringing of a bell. But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain. If there is a noise, it’s internal. It screams and no one can hear it but you. It screams so loud your ears ring and your head aches. It thrashes around in your chest like a great white shark caught in the sea. It roars like a mother bear whose cub has been taken. That’s what it looks like and that’s what it sounds like; a thrashing, panicking trapped great, big beast roaring like a prisoner to its own emotions. But that’s the thing about love: No one is untouchable.
I'm not in the mood of talking and laughing. Tolonglah paham. Bukan I benci tapi I cuma tade mood.
Oh myyy. Saket itu datang lagii. :(
My dad is being suuuperr cool skang. Hehee he cuba tuk to be home for dinner, hugs me almost every morning and one thing for sure, he's getting super talkativee. Yaiyaiyai. Kalau duluu nak ckp sepatah pon berjanggut tunggu. Hahaa hiperbola abaikann. Aummm ayahhhh nak aipom satu please? Ngee bulan 6 katanya aipom 6 nak release ye? Tapi bukan itu yang saya nak. Dapat yg 4 pon okay. Yang 3gs ponn okayy. Ngee nak kene ngorat ngayat ayah lebihh sket nii. Oh oh saket belakang dah so nak tido. Semua org sila tido. Till then, GoodNight people. (:
My dear Zainab.

There are things that we don't want to happen, but have to accept. Things we don't want to know, but have to learn and people we can't live without but we have to let them go. Life is in Allah's hands. He knows what is the best and what isn't for you sayang. Who said being stressed out, miserable and upset are the stupidest way of expressing feeling? Those who were saying that doesn't being in present sayang. Who said that they shall make the decision for you? In the end, it's you who live your life. Kadang-kala apa yang kita rasakan terbaek tuk diri kita itulah yang membinasakan kita. Kadang-kala sesetengah hal itu hanya kita dan Dia yang faham. Semua yang terjadi, itu pengalaman buat kita. I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow, InshaAllah. I've learned that life sometimes gives you a second chance. Who knows what will happen in future. I've learned that whenever I decide something with an open heart, I usually make the right decision. And I've learned that even when I have pains, I don't have to be one. I want you to feel it that way. Remember one thing, I'm here with you. Save your tears. One day, you will need it the most. Put faith in Him. Dia tak kejam untuk menzalimi hambaNya. Kerana cinta Allah itu melebihi kemurkaanNya. Be strong. I love you the most.

Please make up your mind darling. Are you here? Or are you gone?
Tak sabar nak abis segala program ni. I nak off fon. Nak shut all the connection with the outsiders and dunia luar jap. I'm so tired being around people. Hmmph. People.
You have a way of making me like you, and as soon as I like you, you like someone else, leaving me no choice to get over you. Once I’m over you, you come back around, and I fall again. The worst thing is every time I hear your name, I think about what we used to have, and all we could have then I think about how you only call when you want something, or when you're lonely. I hate being trash that you walk all over. So, this time, I'm getting over you. Off you go, love. :)
I'm going to put everything off the line.
Put the facebook, tumblr and blog off the line for a moment.
Going to on my phone whenever I want to and get it off whenever I want to.
Going to answer certain calls from certain people and text certain people only.
Sooo sorry if I didn't pickup your calls or such. I need some time alone. Figuring things out. God's bless everyone.

p/s : My dad and I are getting better dah. Alhamdulillah. And with 'you' out of radar for the mean time, thank you and you're sooooo forbidden to come back. Stay the way you are now. Stop making me confuse.
We used to laugh
Now all we do is cry
You used to make me happy
Now you don't even try

You're hurting me, yeah
You're doing me wrong
I can see it in your eyes
Soon you're gonna be gone

And I know I'm gonna miss you
My love I will send with you
Cause I've been down too long
And you keep doing me wrong

And there will be no more tears for you
Gonna be no more crying now
Gonna be no more tears for you
See my eyes have run dry
And there's no more tears

And no more sadden eyes
From crying through the night
Gonna gather up, gather up my feelings
And lock them all inside

So whe you say you're leaving
And you walk out my door
I'll say to myself
You can not hurt me anymore

And I know I should be crying
But instead I'm slowly dying
Cause all my love has gone
From two hearts so badly torn

And I know I'm gonna miss you
But for love I got me someone else
Cause I been down, been down too long
And you, you keep doing me wrong

Ain't nobody crying
Dry, my eyes
Lord knows its gonna be fine
Its gonna be alright after a while
I'm gonna be alright if you would leave
Surely won't you try, surely won't you, baby won't you try
I'm gonna be alright
Lord knows I don't need you no more, baby
I'm gonna make it on my own

McFly All About You Official Video

It's all about you
It's all about you, baby
It's all about you
It's all about you

Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me too,
Say 'If you make my life worthwhile, it's all about you'

And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.

And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile...
It's all about you.

It's all about you
It's all about you, baby
It's all about you
It's all about you

Boyzone - Every Day I Love You

Hari ini hari Khamis, 17 Mac 2011. Hari lahir kesayangan saya, Hasnun Hanafi. Syg, may you have the most wonderful moments kt German tu. May all your dreams and wishes come true. May all the happiness in this world be yours. May everything and only everything good is being by your side. I love you sayang. More than what you could imagine. This song is for you. Muaaahh.

Behind all these laugh and smile, I couldn't help myself for breaking down and let all the tears falling down. Sometimes people just break down and cry. Without reason. Stop asking why, for I can't answer that question myself. But I am happy. That is...definite.
To My Beloved Sister.

Selamat Pengantin Baru Kakanum, Abang Chiko. Semoga bahagia sampai syurga. Semoga kekal abadi sampai bila-bila. Semoga dilimpahkan kurniaNya yang berlipat kali ganda. To Kakanum, I love you more than everything else. Tapi masehhhhh malu ngan Kaknum sampai skang. Tatau nape. Hehe. You have a wonderful family, push all the sadness away. You're a great and strong woman who shall rule the world just the way you are. I love you kakak.
When I'm with you, I act different. In a good way. I smile more and laugh more. I don't have to pretend everything is okay when it's really not. With you, I can drop the fake smile and put on a real one. I don't feel hurt and alone when I'm with you. Instead, I feel safe and loved. You're easy to talk to, and you listen to me. I don't have to worry about holding back with you. I don't feel self conscious. I don't ever feel insecure or sad. you show me that you really do care, and you're not just pretending. I really appreciate your company, because with you I'm different. With you, I'm happy. :)
Ya Allah.
Selamatkan rakan-rakan di Jepun.
Jaohkan mereka dari segala musibah.
Masalah besar negara hati adalah apabila sesorang merasakan die memahami keseluruhan cerita hidup anda sedangkan dia hanya tahu satu peratus daripada itu. Masalah besar negara hati juga apabila sesetengah hal yang penting itu diambil mudah oleh sesetengah orang. Hiduppp. Sape pernah cakap senang. Yang penting, bagaimana kita memandu haluan itu. Sekali sekala terbabas, biasalah. Esok lusa dah beringat. Mudah ringkas senang simple easy. :)
Happiest evening. Sesi merapatkan balek hubungan, menjalinkan balik hubungan kasih sayang antara kami. Dia yang paling rapat masa kt sekolah dulu. Oh taleh imagine kalau tade die mase tu. I might as well falling apart in pieces thinking of which way should I amek. This is not a joke, mann. Hehe. Thanks for trusting me. Isn't that easy to tell someone else about your stories. Another soulmate. Check. I love you, Nik Idzni Dalila. Never the less, only the more. Hahaha kucar kacir nye ayat english abaikan. Mood I happy macam rama rama tonight. :)
Siapa makan nasi, dia rasa kenyang. Siapa pandai menipu, die akan ditipu. Siapa suka memfitnah, balasannya Tuhan saja yang tahu. Peace! :)
I fall once. I fall twice. And I think I might fall thrice. Alahaiii.
Nak rajin. Kene rajin. Perlu rajin. Wajib rajin. Dan rajin. Maka rajin lagi.

Berapa banyak kali rajinnnn daa.
Ways I'm showing certain people that I don't like them or I'm not comfortable enough with them?
I keep on ignoring their texts. Or calls. Or perhaps I might answer it. After few hours.
I'm not being myself. I talk rude. I'm being cocky. And annoying.
I'm not paying attention to whatever they said.
I'm not looking at their eyes.
I'm a terrible girl, I know. Sorry. My bad. Can't help it.
Pheww! Seharian bersama kakak sayang, KakAnum. Lamalama boleh kene sawan gelak kalau asyik ngan dia je. Hahaha. Alasan jumpe nak kasi barang teros berakhir di jenjang pelamin. Eh? Hahhaa berakhir ngan dating kt Hayaki. Oh muntah kenapaaa kau hadir dikala ku bersama KakAnum. Kan dah risau die. Alahai. Tapi harini penemuan baru. Ade darah masa muntah wooo. Pergh agak agak sakng ni Edward si vampire tu teringin tak kat saya? Darah free tia kasi. Ngee. Yeeee sudah merasakan simptom simptom agak saket dan perit di bahagian hati dan perot dan tekak. Esok ke hospital. Ponteng kelas. Haih. -___- (Hahaha konon nyesal ponteng kelas hahahaha). Okkkkayy. Nak siapkan esaimen satg. Pastu nonton meluangkan masa bersama keluarga jap (ceewah ahha) Oh lagi satu. I Miss You. :)
Sabo jelah. Sabo jelah.
Tidak berguna adanya mata andai tidak dapat melihat, tak guna adanya hati kalau tak tahu menilai.
Untuk kesekian ribuan kalinya, SAYA NAK BALEK MMU! SAYA NAK BALEK CYBER! :(
My happiest moments ada kat sana. Nak kutip balek. Tercicir cicir merata rata. Ayah dan Ibu, oh anakmu ini kesihaniiiilaa.

Hehe mengade post ni tapi tulah kenyataan. Pahit tak pahit. Hempedu tak hempedu. Alahaiiii. Boleh tak menanges time menaip bende tak masok akal ni. Boleh takkkkkk. Ntah pape mata sila behave lah. Tingtong gini salu nanges. Sebat betol betol kang haaa. Belek notes jap pastu krohhh sampai pagi. Esok date sama Cinta Hati, Kakdayah sayang. Goodnight Peopleee. :)
Kejam kepada diri sendiri adalah lebih baek dari kejam kepada orang laen.

Jadiii, berkejam kejamlah terhadap diri sendiri. Biar diri sendiri yang saket, jangan orang laen yang mengaduh. :)

It's Friday!
Semoga yang ceria bertambah ceria.
Semoga yang kurang ceria, akan jadi ceria.
Semoga yang terlebih ceria, ingat mati. Haha tibatiba. Sorry.

Nak buat rules baru tuk otak ngan hati.
Otak sila pokes pikir pasal study ye. Hati pon same.
Kalau dua dua tanak kerjasama, I nak merajok. Ingat tuuu. Apa yang penting, KERJASAMA! Hahaha. Cakap memang senang. Taip kt sini lagiiii la senang.

Dah bulan March, lagi 2 bulan nak final dah cik tia oi. Bawak bawak kesedaran sket. Pikir bukan bukan yang saket diri sendiri, orang laen tade pape pon. Hehe. Kepada yang baca entry ni, doakan I ye?

p/s: masalah muntah maseh menjadi isu hangat abad ini.
Tanak mengeloh tapi semalam lepas dinner, muntah. Ingatkan sebab stress ke ape. Buat tak kesah je. Alahai tengok tengok pagi tadi pon muntah. Tadi balek dari rumah Zainab pon muntah. Kenapaaaaa. Taknak jadi macam dulu. Perot asek reject makanan. Taknakkk. Nak sehat. Nak bebab pegi mana mana. Nak bebas buat apeape. Kalau saket balek? Sume bende mesti dah taleh buat. Nak paksa jugak perot degil ni timer makanan. Kalau tak, I sebat die. Agak agak pasni die insap lah kot. Kene pakai lipstick dah esok esok dan hari hari lepas ni. Muka pucat macam mayat tak hengaaattt. Taknak satg dialog org jadi mcm dulu. Asek tanya, saket ke saket ke. Lama lama jadi doa, betol betol saket. Sobs. :( Banyaknyee permasalahan diri. Taknak salahkan takdir. Yang buruk itu datang dari kelemahan hamba itu sendiri. Yang baek itu datang dari Dia. :)