Allah Knows

When you feel all alone in this world
And there’s nobody to count your tears
Just remember, no matter where you are
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you carrying a monster load
And you wonder how far you can go
With every step on that road that you take
Allah knows
Allah knows

No matter what, inside or out
There’s one thing of which there’s no doubt
Allah knows
Allah knows
And whatever lies in the heavens and the earth
Every star in this whole universe
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you find that special someone
Feel your whole life has barely begun
You can walk on the moon, shout it to everyone
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you gaze with love in your eyes
Catch a glimpse of paradise
And you see your child take the first breath of life
Allah knows
Allah knows

When you lose someone close to your heart
See your whole world fall apart
And you try to go on but it seems so hard
Allah knows
Allah knows

You see we all have a path to choose
Through the valleys and hills we go
With the ups and the downs, never fret never frown
Allah knows
Allah knows

Every grain of sand,
In every desert land, He knows.
Every shade of palm,
Every closed hand, He knows.
Every sparkling tear,
On every eyelash, He knows.
Every thought I have,
And every word I share, He knows.
Allah knows.

Ya Allah, kuatkanlah kesabaranku.
so true, ain't it? (;


I never wanted to have anything in my life that I couldn’t stand losing. But it’s too late for that.
a letter to my grandmother.

assalamualaikum, che. ateh ni. che apekabar harini? che nak tau tak? ateh saaayanngg che.

ateh sayang che. semalam che sakit ye? kesian tapi ateh tak tahu mcm mana nak tolong. ateh cuma mampu gosok letak minyak sket sket.

ateh sayang che. semalam lepas solat, ateh nanges sbb sedih tgk che tahan saket. ateh ajak che pegi hospital tp che cakap tape, che boleh tahan lagi. che nak makan ubat je.

ateh sayang che. ateh dah pesan, che tak payah lah nak buat kerja lagi. tp che takboleh. che cakap che takboleh duk diam tade buat pape. che memang kuat kan?

ateh sayang che. lepas kakak tukar kije kt kuantan, ateh ganti kakak tido umah che, teman che. sbb che cakap che sunyi kalau tinggal ngan abah, abang je kan? tape ateh tak kesah.

ateh sayang che. che suka cakap kan? memang che cakap baaanyaak sgt tp ateh dgr walaupon kadang kadang ateh mcm buat taktahu je, tp ateh dengar. ateh suka tgk che borak ngan adik badik che, ngan kawan kawan che. comel.

ateh sayang che. ateh mintak maap kalau ateh ni cucu yg degil. ateh mmg degil kan? tp che tau tak? ateh blaja masuk pasar pagi pagi sebab che. walaupon ateh memang sangat tak suka pegi pasar, tp tapelah nak teman che kan.

ateh sayang che. ateh doakan che sehat walafiat. kalau boleh sampai ateh dah kije. ateh nak bawak che jalan jalan, makan makan guna first gaji ateh. ateh tak tahu mcm mana nanti kalau che dah tade.
untuk kesekian kalinya, ateh nak bagitau. ATEH SAYYYAAAANG CHE. BANYAK BANYAK.

oh i've been missing my baby. );

when will i get it back, i wonder.
rindu mmu.
rindu orang orang kt mmu.
i wish i were there a lil bit longer back then. );

today is no longer a good day.


nak menyumpah senyumpah nyumpahnye tapi tak kuasa nak membazir pahala kasi kamu free free weih.

oh mmg saya tak reti nak gaduh and biatching right in front of your face, so this is it.
amekkau dalam blog trang tang tang kasi sume orang baca.

and one more thing, if and only if you want to give crappy advice to others, please please please check diri sendiri dulu. i mean, wouldn't you look terribly stupid if you are committing something WHICH you 'advised' others not to do it?

urgh, get a life!

sooo, today is a wonderful day, yes?
have no idea what the rest of the day would be.
but somehow i'm feeling a lil bit pink this morning. hehe.

semalam mimpi sama itu ana azman and nako abdullah.
budak dua orang ni duk lambai lambai right in front of buckingham palace.
haha apekah motif mimpi ini?
ketidakketahuan tetapi comel pulak dorang pakai everything in pink.

err, my deja-vu missy? haha.

hello my fair lady! x)

kt sini! kat sini! kat sini dorang lambai lambai sambil senyum nampak gigi. haha :D

*sory, saya rompak gambar kamu di facebook. :D:D:D
they have no idea how much i've been missing them. so much that i cried all night.

p/s : sory for being too sentimental. its my heart's confession. (;



Syahdunya menderngar takbir di pagi hari.

Alhamdulillah dengan izinNya dapat juga tiah menyambut eid-fitri tahon ini.

Special eid wishes to my dearest parents.siblings.teachers.and friends.

To my teachers (PASTI,SKSPM,MRSM JELI, MRSM PC, MMU, UNITAR etc), selamat hari raya maaf zahir batin atas kenakalan dan kedegilan sya sepanjang pengajaran cikgu semua. you're the best teachers in this whole wide world! sayang cekgu. *

To all my jeli's and pc's friends,

Please forgive me for all my wrongdoings.

Im so not prefect I admit that.

Thanks for being here for me.

Whenever im out of oxygen outta here, You guys lend some yours.

Oh how sweet is that is, I cant tell.

Thanks my darlings.

To my mmu’s friends,

Yes its not a long pried for us to mingle around.

Dalam 8 bulan je kan?

But the truth is the bond that we tied together is unbreakable.

I m just want you to know how much I appreciate you girls and guys in my life.

Life is miserable but its even like hell without all of you.

And my Unitarians.

You rock it!


Haha im so not into plastic whenever Im with you guys.

Some nuts and madness that I put is real.

Crazy you are but that’s what I love about you guys!

Oh ho hope this friendship of ours will remain forever.

How I hope so. *finger-crossed!

My facebookers!

Many people said that its weird to talk and get close to strangers but I prove the other way around,

Even my closest is someone who I knew from facebook.

And yes, we never talk face to face, like totally never but I felt like ive been knowing you for a long time.

I love you fella! Noted that. :D

There are way tooooooo many names if I want to list them here.

My friends, my wishes is simple.

May you all have the most wonderful eid ever.

And jemputlah dating rumah syg syg sekalian ye? Hehe ;D

Love you to bits!

p/s: sedekahkan Al-Fatihah buat teman, guru, dan saudara yang telah pergi. moga roh mereka dicucuri rahmatNya. ameen. (;

muaah. xoxo.

memang saya suka camera saya meroyan time time macam ni. MEMANG!
my words hurt wrong people.
sorry. my bad.
yeay alhamdulillah.
semalam boleh jumpe budak senget senget sekalian.
i am tremendously happy yaww.

zaynab fadaq, maseh sebab sudi teman and BUAT SAYA SESATTTT! hahaha.

dayah fauzi, maseh dayah for sorting 'things' out. tiah memang agak blurr ek smlm? haha. sory darling.

sheep, oh tenkiu tenkiu sbb duk semeja nga tiah deh. and yes, tiah tau satu rhasia baru yeay yeay haha.

mira, oh adek mira sgt handsome, agak agak mira nak tak jd kakak ipar tiah? hahaha. love you hun.

izni, tiah da DEWASA, mind you. haha and yes, i can bear any sg sx stories you see haha. muaah.

mimie, oh sweetpie, thanks for coming. best pleok next time i wont be that shy and grab you breathless haha.

and syimah, oh come on! 12midnight cinderella doesnt fit you well. hahaha. thanks omg i have to hold on my twits not to hug you tau tak. tkaot syisyi marah hehe. x)

pidah, pokjat, che boo, pian and junaidi, you guys rock! haha. thanks for coming and pkjat i know what you did last night muahhaha. x)

gamba gamba yg melimpah ruah dgn ketidakmaturedan semyua akan diupload sooonn. a very deep soon haha.

and for those who cant make it last night, its okay peeps.
i'll hunt you next year, yes? hehe

till then, hold on for one last day fella!

p/s : esok hari raya? ESOK HARI RAYA? oh okay.
kekaseh hati saya, zaynab fad'aq telah menceroboh diari saya dan mendapati saya sudah punya kekaseh hati yg baru. hahaha. sory love! :D
to my darling AMALIA ZAWAWI,
if you're reading this, i'm just want you to know that i've been missing you. banyakbanyak.
and saya mimpi awak semalam. comel tak? hehe (;

kuch kuch hota hai. (;

soo, yes!
im gonna start fresh today.
with smile.
with laugh.
i'll keep trying to hold on the tears.
inshaAllah i can make it.
gambatte fathiah athirah!

my heart, my body, my soul keep rejecting what i'm doing right now.

i have no idea why should i be this weak.
i keep on crying out of the mist.
for some reason i can't assure myself to be an optimist.

i can't scream,
i can't shout.
because my throat is getting hurt.

i can't talk,
i can't laugh,
because my heart won't obey me.

i'm feeling so blue,
world isn't that sphere.
sky isn't that calm,
and sun isn't that bright.

people hurt me,
and i'm crying.

what should i do,
when the best tunnel is to let go.

what should i do,
when the best way is to forgive.

i gave you flowers,
and why did you return them in shits?
i gave you love,
and why did you return it in hatred?

that's what i am now.

stop laughing front there,
look back and see the tears on me.

even after the volcano and tornado,
life is long journey,
just remember,
what you did today, is what you get in future.

don't try to be a best friend,
if you're not even a friend.

somehow, i want you to know,
how hurt is hurt,
how sad is sad,
how battered is battered.

but i'm not a hamster.
who ate her friends whenever she want to.
i'm not like you.

my only doa' for you?
may Allah forgive you.
may Allah forgive y0u.

aku dah muak dengan kau.
tolong jangan buat aku menyampah lagi.
cukup cukuplah menyusahkan hidup orang laen.
belajarlah menghargai.
kepada, KAU.
when life gave me shits, i really don't know how to turn them into flowers.
you make me SICK!
i am not beautiful.
i am fat.
i am ugly.
i am not a genius.
i am short.
i am not a good girl.
i am a geek.
i am a freak.

but that's not a pass for you to break my heart.
life is at its best.
good things come, good things gone.
bad things come, bad things gone.
somehow, i can't imagine how my life would be without my friends.
they keep me holding on, gripping so much to life that i'd thought would never be on my side.
indeed, they have no idea, how much they meant to me.
some people is playing dummy, they have the angel in front and devil behind.
and for you who did that.
thank you. thank you.
i admired you,i'm thanking you for letting me to know better about life.

life isn't about finding yourself, its about creating yourself.
friends come and gone.
but best friends, stayed.

thank you Allah for giving me such an opportunity to meet tons of beautiful and nice people.
they are my everything.
yes, they are.

i love them with all my heart.

jacqueline grace hendrick.
syazli anwar.
azwani yusof.
siti norhidayu.
nurul anfal nordin.
azmina azmi.
syafiq asyraf.

akmal syahmi.
daem fudzail.
farhana norazman.
hasnun hanafi.
sharifah ainul khadijah.
izyan hazwani.
hidayah fauzi.
nakiah abdullah.

izni adnan.
zainab syed hassan.
ros syukriah.
nurunnisa idayu.
wee kuan soon.
foh yu piau.
nurul akmal.
hajar aishah.
syahmi azim.
hidayah ghani.
zhu adha.

thanks for being by my side.
thank you for being my all.
thank you.

and there might be few names that i forgot to mention, but no worries, i love you all the same.